Ricki Lakeknows the love she had with her late ex-husbandChristian Evanswas very rare.
“I found true love with my husband who passed so I’m hoping to find love again,” Lake, 50, said onChatter. “I don’t think I will. I’m open to it, but I think what I had — I was so lucky to have found that, it’s what everybody wants in life.”
“I had true, unconditional love so I’d like to have something along those lines again,” she continued. “But I feel like lightning doesn’t strike twice.”
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The couple began dating in September 2010. At the time, Lake said she had given up on the idea of happily ever after. Having split from Rob Sussman, the father of her two sons Milo, 21, and Owen, 17, in 2003, Lake said, “I never thought I would marry again after that.”
But Evans, who the actress said was upfront about his condition and admitted he had been diagnosed with bipolar disorder earlier in his life, “was quiet and wise. There was not a phony bone in his body.”
“He had a lot of self-esteem issues and a lot of demons,” Lake added. “But I understood him, and he was someone that I think a lot of people misunderstood.”
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Evans’ mental health issues led to him moving out and the pair deciding to get a divorce. Despite their separation, Lake was still supportive of her ex-husband.
“It wasn’t my comfort level to be together in secret,” Laketold PEOPLE in March 2017. “He wasn’t stable, and he was so fragile, but I was still in love with him, so there was something romantic about it. I wanted to save him.”
She also admitted to hoping they would eventually repair their marriage.
“I knew there wasn’t a high probability for that happening, but I hoped so,” she told PEOPLE. “I was still in love with him. He made me so happy. I was never happier than when I was with him.”
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“I have to spread the word about recognizing this disorder and getting treatment as soon as possible,” Lake told PEOPLE. “Christian didn’t want to be labeled as bipolar, but he admitted he was in the note he left.”
“That was him finally owning it,” she added. “That was him giving me permission to tell his story.”
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source: people.com
